Idiot

It's hard to describe my emotion

I can't tell the exactly feeling to others -- Not Good At All !

I know that I'm stupid 

when I can't do the things as I wish to.

How idiot I am 

when I felt sympathize to the one who hurt me deeply.

Yup, I will be cold toward you,

just because of what you have done.

Fake a smile is a must for me,

I practicing.

I know that I made wrong decision

to close myself, away from you all.

Why I can't be happy like last year,

rumors change my world.

Why I always shed tears,

Is that painstaking and tired to store in my body?

I realize the cruel of peoples makes them blind.

I bear the pain.

Feeling down..

depth inside the core of earth.

Nobody to call, nobody will know

and nobody will care .

I miss you mum.. 

Miss you dad.

Can you stop crying!! Idiot!